Porn is a big reason as to why i hated high school and my teen years altogether So much of it was boiled down to being addicted to porn, escalating, and objectifying other people and objectifying myself I can't stand thinking about it over and over again. I was believer but not a very good one.the reason my hocd started it was because i was struggling with pornography at that time.and one time i was reading this blog where this guys says that his brother was addicted to porn and he became gay. The other week i remembered a time when i was young that i clicked on a gay porn link when i was browsing a porn site and started to masturbate to it but it felt weird and i just couldn't keep watching it so i switched to something else My mind has been trying to convince me that since i watched it that one time years ago it proves that i'm gay.
For starters i am a young adult female who has never had a serious relationship before Ever since a few weeks ago i assumed i was straight I had one instance in covid i thought i was gay (attributed this to just being lonely), then another a few months ago when i realized i was noticing and staring at boobs more. I wouldn't say your a pedophile I know many men who masturbate to gay porn but have no desire in real life to be with a man Pornography can be seen as a taboo for many, hence why someone might masturbate to child porn even if they don't find children attractive
I have nothing against gay people, and i'm a progressive who supports gay rights, but i know i'm not gay I don't want to be gay, and i just want to like girls again The last spike i had was in november, and after the spike until now, everything was great Today i watched porn just to make sure i'm straight, and this always happens. Forum rules this is a support forum for the family, partners and friends of those with mental health issues This forum is intended to be a safe place to discuss information, give and receive support and learn about all the issues related to being involved with a person with a disorder
Whilst it can be healthy to express various emotions, please remember to be respectful about the disorder. If i were gay or bi or whatever, i would have gone with that, so my spotty homoerotic thoughts were not suppressed by fear at all I would also like to add something that hasn't been addressed When we become sexual involved at a level that is possibly an addiction our brain is always looking to push the envelope to try and get a high. I always thought even in my childhood days when i was a young boy that something was wrong with me I was pretty much a loner (still am in my thirties) and had only a few friends
I couldn't talk to guys that i used to hang out with anymore. Is it possible to turn gay By keving31 » sun feb 23, 2014 5:18 am you've mentioned that your father is homophobic so it is only natural that this planted in you the fear of being gay In my time on this forum from what i've observed well over 95% of the posters with this hocd/fear of being gay problem are men.
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